Miss Independent

2011-02-06T01:29:00.002+08:00

Photo: Chinese New Year (Day2)

got my pay alr! but jeslyn still owes me and yuliany the cab fare.

and i still haven't received my money from her... :\ hope she won't

run away with my money o_o she won't righttttt? from what i know,

she's not the kind who runs away after owing a sum of money...i hope ~

wonder how she's doing now :o hopefully, she'll be sensible enough

not to wander to the wrong path again. :)

& I MADE A NEW FRIEND :P

My head chef, hehhhhhhhh! ^^

His bunny's called chocolate, and my dog's called cookie.

Now baby should get a pet and name it chip :p

thn we'll be the awesome chocolate chip cookie. hehehe :p

3 more days to 1st year ♥

2011-02-01T02:02:00.000+08:00

I ALMOST DIED WATCHING THIS AHAHAHA
FUNNY SHIT

Aaron showed me many funny videos i almost died laughing.
LOL LOL LOL

2011-01-31T01:25:00.002+08:00

I've been sick for a couple of days alreadyyy

down with high fever and a bad throat. :0

Feeling much better now, able to face the com alr :D

Fb is such an entertaining website.

although it promotes stalking, but yeah its interesting >:)

like how i'm able to look at some really disgusting faces

there. and their slutty actions and well shall not elaborate! :)

While some of them, like to step one english pro.

disgusting max. :DDD ok i'm being mean. shall stop criticizing.

gonna meet baby tmr! :3

2011-01-25T02:14:00.002+08:00

yep i'm still awake at this time. just logged off adium, phew.

had a long chat with arif. such a dedicated boyfriend. :o *envy*

and i heard awfully shocking stuff from him. pedophile alert. HAHAHA.

Gym later in the day. Can't wait for more muscle aches and more

dizziness and more almost-going-to-pass-out kinda feeling! :p

had awfully sinful icecream just now. wish i didnt touched those

honeypots which makes me feel like i'm in heaven :p yes that's icecream

for you. fluffy. cloudy. heavenly goodness. and of course, fats. :\

worst combination eva. all good things has its downsides. what a

W O N D E R F U L world indeed. -.-

Missing baby right nowwwww :p

2011-01-23T00:28:00.002+08:00

i am a girl.

i need care, love, concern,

attention, hugs, kisses, compliments,

to be pampered, to be given surprises,

someone to make me happy.

there's so many things you wanted,

and i tried to fulfill all of your requests.

i feel stupid to do things for you.

have i forgotten i'm the girlfriend?

why am I stupidly playing the role of the boyfriend?

pls. may poly be good for me.

2011-01-21T15:47:00.000+08:00

hi & bye.

i wanna go to the gym again :b

2011-01-20T01:07:00.002+08:00

I kinda look like youjing in thatttt. okay i was being retarded.

& I can't help but keep browsing the coach catalogues! D:

I want coach wallettttttt )':

but since i'm currently broke now and i'm jobless,

i can continue dreaming cos my mom isn't so nice to pay for it.

and my sis, i just wish she'll win 1st prize for the competition

and get 1k cash (which is obviously not possible). it's just 1k

worth of prizes. :'( i need some kind souls in my life ! :(

If nothing goes wrong , (which I hope and pray nothing will) ,

I'm going to the gym with baby! :o

didn't go ikea today. ughhh. crushed.

didn't get to eat my meatballs but ate pizzas instead

which is equally fattening. GOSH. FATS x infinity >:(

S A V E M E ! :(

& my coach wallet. T.T

2011-01-19T00:39:00.002+08:00

I need to slim down! I look pregnant alreadyyyy.

I miss baby! although we just skyped a couple of hours ago~

& i'm still in my dress LOL. still can't decide whether to wear

dress or shirt leyyyyyyy. Meeting baby ltr in the afternoon! (hopefully)

Going to ikea if nothing spoils the plan tmrw! ^^ I K E A !!!! YAY :D

I miss the swedish meatballs there. yum x 10030844575

Fatfat! but who cares :b my silly baby also a bit fat alr <3

HEH. i loike. ^^

2011-01-17T17:38:00.003+08:00

SO I WAS PLAYING WITH MY BABY CAMERA TODAY AND I TOOK

LOTS OF PHOTOS OF... myself. LOL FINE I'M OBSESSED WITH MYSELF.

and I'm lazy to post it up........

OH NO I'M FATTTTTTER

and I have small (.)_(.) :'(

HAHAHAHA

2011-01-16T23:23:00.002+08:00

SO RIDICULOUS

FUCKING ASSHOLE

I'M EXERTING FULL FORCE ON MY KEYBOARD

I'M SO FUCKING PISSED TO THE EXTENT I'M SHEDDING

TEARS OF FUCKING ANGER.

I GOT MISUNDERSTOOD.

SO YOU THINK BEING STUDIOUS GIVES YOU THE AUTHORITY

TO BE SO SNOBBISH AND ACT LIKE YOU'RE SO SUPERIOR?

HAVEN'T THOSE EDUCATION TAUGHT YOU HOW TO FIND OUT

THE AWFUL TRUTHS BEFORE YOU START JUMPING INTO YOUR

OWN MADE UP RIDICULOUS CONCLUSIONS?! SERIOUSLY.

WHAT I DID IS WHAT I DID. YOU CAN'T IMAGINE YOURSELF TO BE

ME AND TRY TO FIGURE OUT WHAT I WAS FEELING OR DOING.

SO WHY THE BLOODY HELL ARE YOU DOING THIS

FUCK FUCK FUCK

I CAN FEEL MY BLOOD PRESSURE SHOOTING SKY HIGH

I FEEL LIKE SLAPPING YOU LIKE HOW YOU SLAP YOUR FUCKIN

MOM NOW

2011-01-13T14:04:00.002+08:00

Am I too demanding or do I expect too much from you?

From now onwards, I've learnt that I can never ask for care/concern

from you. What I'll get is just accusations of me being selfish and

i'll be made the bad guy. As always. Is it that hard to show me some

care and concern? Don't you understand why parents are so concerned

about girls going out alone late at night? Seriously. Do I really mean

so little to you? Or am I just not worth your care and concern? I just

hope some misfortune befalls on me, or any of your future girlfriends.

and I hope you'll regret and be scarred for life.

Must go on a dietttt. Looking forwardz to good life in poly :p slim down!!!

2011-01-10T17:49:00.001+08:00

Am I happy...?

N O

You used to want to send me home willingly,

but now, I have to request for it ..

Everything is pointless now,

I feel like a burden to you.

2011-01-09T21:53:00.002+08:00

9th january marks the 11th month. but yeah it doesn't mean anything to us right?

Sigh. T O M O R R O W is the day. I need more luck. I need luckkkkk.

I hope LIEUSHIYING's calculation is accurate :> hope & pray , hope & pray !

RELAXZXZXZ. LIEUSHIYING IS CRAPPING NOW, MAKES ME FEEL

A LITTLE LESS TENSED.

Today was a badddd day. Please God, let tomorrow be a better, best day.

& Baby ; I dk whether you'll read this or not . but just to let you know,

i'm not a mind reader. Sure as hell I wouldn't be able to read your mind !

I won't know how or what you're feeling. Even if you hate the things that

I do, your reactions prove otherwise. and NOW you're blaming me ?!

You should know I had always been very playful. Slapping and throwing

things at you, I don't actually mean it. How the hell would I know whether

you hate it or you don't mind at all? Please, just speak will you? I know I

have a bad temper and almost everyone knows it. I know I'll start throwing

a fit at you. but that shouldn't stop you from telling me how you feel.

Smoking your way through this relationship ain't gonna help. It's not called

giving in Bi. It's not a wise move either. You're thinning the trust and

understanding between us both. I hope you know. & please don't give me

really last minute decisions, do you know how irritating it is? :\

As much as we're trying to close up the gap between us, I think we're

still drifting ~ further and further away after every quarrel .

On the other hand ! without you around, I'm becoming even more

dependent on myself ~ I think (: Perhaps, I can get used to this life

with you hardly by my side. Poly life would be good. New friends..

& hopefully, someone I can depend on ~

* Lieushiying says if I do well, and his calculations are accurate,

I have to treat th section! Omgzx. and he has to organize section

outing! HAHAHA. :P

2011-01-06T23:38:00.003+08:00

Life is pure shitty.

1. I hate being neglected

yeah it's not your fault. School's fault. ha.

and then I was in such a rotten mood bcos I was standing

right at Jp's entrance, and you were near intchg. Since we

couldn't meet, this shows that fate between us has been reduced

to dust. and sure as hell I was being ridiculous, but can't you

put yourself in my place and see things from my side? I admit,

I was oversensitive and I was over reacting. But don't you know why?

I'm afraid this would spell an end between us. and I'm fucking

fearful of that. All you did was give me some shitty attitude. No really,

were you like this before that? No. You've changed. Haven't you

realize? and you don't care about phone calls anymore. I miss the

phone calls we had, and the phone calls that you'll miss. but now?

you lament when I request for a phone call. You told me to call you

instead. and most of the time I was doing the talking.

Where is the love ?

2. When I'm down, you don't even know what to do.

Remember the time I was throwing a fit outside the cinema?

and you claim that you were at my lobby waiting for me to come

down. but I guess, all these were dion&co's plans. You will

NEVER do such things. I was hoping it would happen again,

I was wishing to see you waiting at the lobby for me, but I guess

it's all part of my wishful thinking.

3. Expectations are killing me from inside. I thought..

Things are never the same now. Talk is cheap.

Please, give me a word you can keep.. and if the love is gone,

just tell me will you? I'd rather be drowning in pain than

be hurting like this..

If you've realized, we've drifted. and we're almost just friends now.

thanks a lot. I guess I'll never be your top priority.

" What if this time, I don't say hi first?
What if this time, I don't text you back?
What if this time, I leave you wondering?
Yeah what if this time, you're the one feeling completely screwed over.

2011-01-05T23:04:00.002+08:00

k hi i grew fatter alr.

and cookie bby got fever.

oh dear. and she's so cute. but irritating.

tsk. and layting and I got infection on our

helix piercings. fuck.this.shit.

=.=

i dw results lah damnit.

MR LIM, PLS PRAY HARD HARD.

PLEASEEEE THANKSSSSS.

BLESS YA'ALL RESULT TAKERS. :B

2011-01-03T23:27:00.002+08:00

My little cookie baby is such a vain pot.

She poses for my camera! :p or at least that's what i think.

HAD BEEN BUSY WITH THIS LITTLE IMP FOR THE PAST 1 DAY~

had to keep a close eye on her to ensure she doesn't treat

my whole house as her potty area. but obviously, i failed. :p

Well, she did poop and pee in her assigned area but sometimes,

we just miss her "glorious moment". She's currently sleeping now.

Really cute fella. Follows me around the house. ^________^

OKAY. BYE.

I MISS SCHOOL SO FKING MUCH BUT I CAN DO NO SHIT BOUT IT.

2011-01-01T21:47:00.002+08:00

Tmr is the day!!

Had fun with baby during countdown although i was feeling

pretty scared of the noise. Ha. A wave of mixed emotions hit

me when the fireworks stole the attention of everyone. Fear

struck me. Fear of being alone. Fear of failures in my future

journey in life. Fear of being ostracized in poly. Fear of losing

my friends and especially bibi. Fear of growing old. and the

fact that I will never be able to return back to 2010. :'(

'Nuf said. Love the balloons I bought for myself and baby :')

My balloon's now been hung at cookiebby's playpen <3

OH WELLS. In a blink of an eye, before I even realize,

I'll be stepping into this society and i'll be working the

shit out of me. No more skipping lessons. No more whining.

It's the big thing now. I'm growing up. And soon, I'll be ALL GROWN UP.

Dear God, greatest blessings to my parents and family.

May everything be smooth sailing and joyful. May you all

stay in the pink of health till you got sick and tired of

walking on the very face of earth. May you all live in

Eternal happiness, and stay in the pink of health and wealth :p

With unlimited love from me for your beautiful souls, Dad and Mom, I Love You :)

Same to every one of my family members ^^

Babyyy. We've just crossed the bridge to another year!

I foresee many storms that I hope we'll weather through together.

I hope and pray that education will not be a barrier that will

drift us away from each other. Study hard and I love youuuu :)

Friends: Best of luck in everything you do. :)))

2010-12-31T10:12:00.002+08:00

THIS. IS FOR EVERY FUCKING MEDDLESOME MORONS WHO HAS

PISSED ME OFF IN THIS YEAR. A BIG FUCK YOU.

AND TO MY SO CALLED BOYFRIEND.

YOU SING PRAISES TO YOURSELF AND YOU PUSHED BLAMES TO ME

FOR ALL YOUR LIFE. THANKS FOR PISSING ME OFF EVEN TODAY

EARLY IN THE MORNING. JUST FUCK OFF AND DIE.

YOU'RE NOT WORTHY OF MY LOVE. BLOODY USELESS PERSON.

2010-12-30T22:23:00.001+08:00

I'd write you a song

But I can't find the words to say

To tell you what's on my mind

but even a symphony cant say what you mean to me......

2010-12-29T22:58:00.002+08:00

Fuckyes, It's almost thursday!

I'M BLOODY COUNTING DOWN TO SUNDAY.

FUCKING EXCITED HAHAHAAHAHAAHAAHA.

Side note: I'm excited that baby's returning too k,

Don't keep thinking I'll neglect you because of our cookie!

YAYYYYY.

2010-12-28T16:05:00.004+08:00

ok so i woke up and used the com and eventually got bored.

so cameroid.com kept me busy for a while. it was fun at the beginning..

(picture above: LONG BOOBS LOL)

did some dumb stunts and looked stupid

made fuck faces and kept myself amused

and then i got bored.

so i remained bored from then on.... but i was clicking through

my photo bucket albums.. and i saw a few cute lower sec photos.

nostalgic much! and i even have the picture of my sec1 seat. :P

and i stumbled upon ricky's photo <3

KAY IM bORED.

2010-12-28T00:54:00.002+08:00

My little one gave me a kiss kiss! So sweet right, *melts*

AAAANYWAY. Im supposed to sleep now. The days are

CRAWLING by. Can't wait till baby comes back, and cookie

arrives <3

Baby is sooooooo silly, where am I supposed to find someone

just like him? Betcha had the best experience in your entire life

at the hot spring. Naykedddd! :p

BTW I GET HUNGRY EASILY AT SUCH TIMINGS.

D: AHHHHH, GOING MARKETING TMR WITH LAULAYTING! (:

Lalalas, ^.^ BYE.

2010-12-26T22:24:00.002+08:00

If your genuine emotions are hidden behind a mask that's adhered tightly to your face,

I swear I can do it ten times better than you. I'm enjoying this show, we'll see who's the

first to wave the white flag. If you're faking, I'll do it twice as good. Rotten hearted thing.

Cookie! I can't wait for her to arrive! I foresee many problems like over-playfulness

and things like that. Can't wait to show baby my little honeypot. <3

this sunday! Like daddy has said it, the official ceremony :p! ok it's lame but the way

he said was absolutely hilarious. I MISS BABY! :'( Why aren't you here with me?

I wanna go shopping for the essential things that cookie needs. :( I'll pester my mom

to go with me thennn. :p Since, Well, Therefore, Thus, The end. kthxbye.

2010-12-26T00:07:00.002+08:00

^ My puppyyyyyyyy, still haven't thought of a name for it yet.